WOW! What a day we had. At 6:15am the phone rang and it was Alicia’s Doctor giving me the good news that a donor heart has become available. I was told not to rush as the heart is far (probably in the US) and our surgeon has to go and get it. I didn’t know what to do at this time whether to get up and shower or go back to sleep as this might be just a dream so I just stood there looking out the window. After a few minutes I started to call the family to inform them of the good news. After about 45 minutes I went to my computer to update Alicia’s website with the good news and the phone rang again. Again it was Alicia’s doctor but this time he told me that Alicia has had a fever of 38.9C since 4am and he does not think that a heart transplant will be the best thing for her at this time and that they will inform Trillium Health to make this heart available for someone else. I informed Kasia right away and as you can predict we were both very devastated. The reason the doctors did not want to do the transplant was the fact that she had a fever and they did not know what caused the fever, whether it was an infection or something else. If they would have transplanted, her body would not be able to fight with a new heart and an infection. Alicia must be in perfect condition in order to receive a heart and the doctors want only the best for her. I think it was Alicia’s way of saying that she is not ready for a heart yet and that’s fine as we will just keep on waiting. It’s a never ending roller coaster of emotions though. I came to the hospital to see her and there she was laying next to her two teddy bears with a bag of ice on her head to lover the fever. I told her what had happened, but she didn’t seem too worried so I told her "since you're not worried than I want worry as much eather" and I went to work. We’ll just keep on waiting, God knows what he is doing, right?
Mirek
